Plantaea

Be nice to animals

For they are energy

Two separate species

With nothing against one another

One bites the plantae

The bigger bites all

Evolved back in Archaica

Diverged into a new age

The plantae stares in silence

It knows not even nothing

Accurate Energy

Not giving up is important

Thinking critically is important

It's important to keep trying

There was always more potential

Even after you stopped

Knowledge is neverending

Life for me

Nothing I do pays off

Always double crossed

No relief ever comes

It's constant anxiety

I never win, I always fail

Everything is taken from me

Everything they say is bullshit

I never get what I want

I get to give to others

and be a gift of light

but I'm not allowed the same

I'm a reverse parasite

I wish I could succeed

but we know it never happens

Pump me up with words or more

The outcome never changes

I don't enjoy living this way

I make attempts to alter

But I'm locked into this life

by the universe, it seems

Guess I'm fucked

Goodnight & goodbye

Keep waving your finger

and repeating the words of others

I've tried everything in the book

I'm old, what the hell do you want?

I've learned and grown a lot

and I haven't tried to stop

Say something else, please

Because my feeling is getting worse

I'm always falling apart

and I feel badly for it

Be myself but change, you say

I'm stuck and frustrated.

The kernel of truth

I waste my feelings on women that will never care.

The 2-5AM Deadzoners Who Think Way Too Much

It's never easy to stride the wire

Between reality and rumination

We require a fellowship to exist

So that we may put our minds in check

Not anything spins faster than the worrier's brain

Not anything could race or pace it

Intentions aren't always detected

And sometimes they are heavy or infected

I wish happiness upon you

Because I wish it for myself

Something Changed

I don't know how long this will last

But I have to ride it out

I don't have a choice in the matter

Between pain and hope

The choice of pain is withering

Faith is becoming an option

Not every tear on my cheek

Will represent my misery anymore

Sometimes they will stand for change

I have to keep trying

To improve my world

To see myself the way you see me

My eyes have been shut for years

And it feels like a century wasted

The regret is heavy

But the scars from all of my risks

Aren't long enough just yet to call it quits

I've missed this humanity I've lacked

I genuinely appreciate an error

I want to fully own myself at my peak

I need to hit the bullseye for once in my life

I can, and I should

I deserve to be happy

I am throwing all of my aim into this new reality

The way it should have always been

But never was

And dwelling will only prevent it

And it's nearly impossible not to dwell

Yet I must push through and tell myself better

I can't allow the words of loving comrades to fall on deaf ears

I can't waste my own time anymore

And I surely can't waste theirs

I still don't have the answers I crave

I'm in the middle

I still crave

I try

I am only myself

That's all I can be

Nothing Changes

I try with all I have

To do everything I can

To fulfill my desire

My fuel to stick around

But I can't help but lean back

Against the wall

And look straight down

How many years of twisted rules

And obscured answers

Does it take for my peace to arrive?

No one is worth impressing

A connection isn't allowed

I'm locked out of society

And my thoughts win the war against my mind

All I can do is try

And I always will

But nothing works, and everyone is broken

This body, these accomplishments

Nothing of substance seems to matter

I can only push myself through pain

For only so much longer

Be it the mind or the body

Whichever snaps first

I'm paying heavily

The frustration never ends

The comparisons constantly sting

The passed time has diminished the

Scraps of hope I found throughout life

The feelings drop into the gut

I self-suffer another night alone

And anything I attempt

Is just another failure on the pile

The lie of confidence passes me by

The opportunities forever slain

Everything was a mistake

Everything is desperation

Nothing swings my way

It seems I'll never have my day.

Final Limit

My patience is pushing me to extremes

I continuously sail through an ocean of screams