Life for me

Nothing I do pays off

Always double crossed

No relief ever comes

It's constant anxiety

I never win, I always fail

Everything is taken from me

Everything they say is bullshit

I never get what I want

I get to give to others

and be a gift of light

but I'm not allowed the same

I'm a reverse parasite

I wish I could succeed

but we know it never happens

Pump me up with words or more

The outcome never changes

I don't enjoy living this way

I make attempts to alter

But I'm locked into this life

by the universe, it seems

Guess I'm fucked

Goodnight & goodbye

Keep waving your finger

and repeating the words of others

I've tried everything in the book

I'm old, what the hell do you want?

I've learned and grown a lot

and I haven't tried to stop

Say something else, please

Because my feeling is getting worse

I'm always falling apart

and I feel badly for it

Be myself but change, you say

I'm stuck and frustrated.