Report Card, March 2022

Instead of writing about what I say I think I'm going to do, I'm instead going to just write about what I did.

"Blackout 2" aka unnamed band with Steven and Jimmy:

- there are at least 5 songs done on guitar, drums, and bass. They are getting vocals soon from Steven.

- bass and guitar has been recorded for several more songs (there are about 15 more songs we are actively working on).

- we practice weekly and Steven twitch streams it.

Spinscythe (in general):

- I've been playing open mics.

- Been jamming with other musicians and letting some improvise over my songs.

- I've picked the songs I want to record for the first real Spinscythe release.

- I've been doing more music stuff and socializing in North Augusta. 

Agents of Agent:

- We have written 6-7 original songs and are in the early stages of recording.

Time Wizards:

- Due to life events and other things out of our control, we haven't been able to make many efforts in this project in a while. Me currently playing open mics is sort of a placeholder for now.

Warz & Battlez and the other comics:

- Dead. Probably will be for some time, until I finish a few music projects. 

2021-1-8

I want to improve

As a human being

To be the one to lift up the problems

To be strong and reliable

To be smart and suave

To be capable of catching my dreams

To be the one to help others rise

To prove to the world I'm not a liar

But I'm getting older

Feeling fatigued

Worrying how to keep up the feat

Feeling inferior

Feeling a little wrong

My extroversion is wearing off

Writing the same old tired song

Over and over, wondering how

I can overcome myself and be proud

Time controls me

And problems arise

I'm an alien in society

I have no place where I belong

Those who love me keep me from the dark

But there are times where I struggle to see

I'm scared of failing

Terrified of my mortality

I hope people know who I am

Before I forget myself.

Plantaea

Be nice to animals

For they are energy

Two separate species

With nothing against one another

One bites the plantae

The bigger bites all

Evolved back in Archaica

Diverged into a new age

The plantae stares in silence

It knows not even nothing

Accurate Energy

Not giving up is important

Thinking critically is important

It's important to keep trying

There was always more potential

Even after you stopped

Knowledge is neverending

Life for me

Nothing I do pays off

Always double crossed

No relief ever comes

It's constant anxiety

I never win, I always fail

Everything is taken from me

Everything they say is bullshit

I never get what I want

I get to give to others

and be a gift of light

but I'm not allowed the same

I'm a reverse parasite

I wish I could succeed

but we know it never happens

Pump me up with words or more

The outcome never changes

I don't enjoy living this way

I make attempts to alter

But I'm locked into this life

by the universe, it seems

Guess I'm fucked

Goodnight & goodbye

Keep waving your finger

and repeating the words of others

I've tried everything in the book

I'm old, what the hell do you want?

I've learned and grown a lot

and I haven't tried to stop

Say something else, please

Because my feeling is getting worse

I'm always falling apart

and I feel badly for it

Be myself but change, you say

I'm stuck and frustrated.

The kernel of truth

I waste my feelings on women that will never care.

The 2-5AM Deadzoners Who Think Way Too Much

It's never easy to stride the wire

Between reality and rumination

We require a fellowship to exist

So that we may put our minds in check

Not anything spins faster than the worrier's brain

Not anything could race or pace it

Intentions aren't always detected

And sometimes they are heavy or infected

I wish happiness upon you

Because I wish it for myself